Day 20--A Hobby of Yours
OK, so I am about to out myself and I am doing this for a reason..accountability. You see a Hobby I have had is working out, I love it and I need it and I have done it for a long time, since my early 20's I have always engaged in some sort of exercise. I am not very talented at crafting, sewing, knitting or any traditional hobbies but I have always used my "me" time, to exercise. I have many motivations, health being one. My mother died suddenly at age 47 of a heart attack, my grandmother died at about 51 of a hear attack as well. But if I were to be completely honest and that is my intention I exercise because I am vain. I want to look good and I want to fit in my clothes and I love how it feels to work out. I was never what you would call skinny, and I am curvy I have a big butt and big boobs but have always had a very little waist...so here is why I am outing myself. I need to admit that I have gained weight, a lot of weight. I finally got on a scale this morning and drum roll please....189 lbs, yep..you heard that right. I am 5ft11 but that is still WAY to heavy for me. I have never been this big before and all I can say is that since Oct last year something stressful occurred in my life and I have been eating ever since. I still exercise, everyday and thank goodness I do or who knows how big I would be but I am telling you all this because I am holding myself accountable for this weight gain and I am now determined to get back on track. My hubs, who I love so much and who loves me know matter what, could care less. The only thing he cares about is me being happy and he realized that me being heavy does not make me happy. He will do whatever I need him too, and right now I just need his support and I know I have it..I am a lucky girl to have such a man.
So right now for the next few weeks I am doing the walk from hell, I live on a hillside and I have been running down the hill and trying to run back up..it is steep, I will take a pic and share it with you soon. I am hooking up my Wii Fit again and doing the 30 day challenge again..and I am going to call the gym and get a trainer as soon as I lose the first 10 pounds. I know how to do this, I will do it and I will keep you all updated. I just wanted to share this with you all and any support would be really appreciated! If anyone else is on this journey and need a buddy let me know..we could encourage one another! I will post a before pic here and I will post one every week or so to see what type of progress I am making. Little hard to tell in that pic but I will try to find a better one.
6 comments:
Wow!! I'm glad I'm not the only one that has gained weight. ;-)
I was a skinny girl my entire life. I had muscles, I was lean, I ate EVERYTHING in site! When I got married and stopped working on the farm, my body didn't realize that as a snack I didn't need to eat an entire 12 inch pizza in one sitting.
I started working on a race track before I moved to NC, and I was down to about 130. I was REALLY thin. My entire family was worried about me. I don't want to be that thin again, but 135-140 would be nice. Well, let me take that back, I don't actually care how much I weigh, I just don't want to be this weight any more. I don't want to look like I'm about 5 months prego anymore!
I applaud you for "outing" yourself. It takes alot! I'm down to about 185, but I was at almost 200! I really need to get back to posting it on facebook again. I think I might do that tomorrow when I weigh in. :-)
Hi Girlie..well I know you have had some stress too in your life. If you need support I here for you too. I realize I will never be 130 again and actually that is too thin for me anyhow. Right now I am taking baby steps and making small goals like 10 pounds at a time. I feel confident .
I too, have gained weight. It started a few years ago when I was going through a tough time with my daughter. I got it under control during our first deployment. THEN we moved to Hawaii. I eat and drink like I'm on vacation. I love to cook and then I love to eat.
It's not nearly as easy for me to lose the weight anymore. I have to work so hard at it and I get discouraged.
I'm determined to drop some poundage again. I just hate being this big.
Thanks for sharing.. it's nice to know others are struggling too.
Paula
Since hitting my 40's it has gotten harder, just means I have to work harder but the results take time. I think it is interesting how different cultures vies weight. When I was in Africa I had gained some weight and quickly lost it, I remember my cook pulling me aside and asking me if my husband and I were having "problems". When I asked her why she said because I had lost weight and in Africa weight is seen as symptom of a "happy life". I guess that holds true here as well but we view it as a burden not a blessing. I just want to fit back in my clothes, I realize I will never be a size 6 again. Thanks for sharing and I am here for support when you need it too.
We live hillside too, and I march it a couple times a week with the stroller and sometimes the dog in tow. I've never had a weight struggle, but I can't imagine ever being unhappy with how I look. I'm so glad to hear that exercise is such a large part of your life. As for food, personally, I believe that with the right exercise, any person can eat whatever and as much as they want. Now, whether they have a bad cholesterol problem or not... that's another issue entirely. But if food is what comforts you, dear, indulge. Just keep up that activity and you'll come out on top!
Hi Brie
Well I am back on track so I am feeling much better, I would never say that I have ever been "fat" but I am overweight right now, meaning my clothes aren't fitting and that to me is always an indicator that it is time to cut back and get serious. I think that is great you have never been unhappy with the way you look, awesome confidence. I think I have always struggled a bit with body image issues but never to the point it made me lack self assurance if you know what I mean. My husband loves me no matter what I look like or what size my jeans are, and I am the most beautiful woman in the world to him, I truly know that with all my heart. I think your right about eating what you want with the right amount of exercise, everthing in moderation is fine. I have always been active, and will always be as long as my body allows me too. I take my dog with me too, on days I am not running since he can't really keep up with the days I run since he is getting a bit older. Thanks for the great comment and support it means a lot.
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